….a little more than useless

I HATE BEING AN INTERN TODAY.

reason 1…coming in a entry soon to be written about TRANSITION DISASTER

Reason 2: I have  fruit flies that are genetically resistant to RAID, bleach, fly motels and anything I throw at them.

Reason 3: I have been yelled at nearly every day for either things that were COMPLETELY not my fault (one involved a neurosurg attending who ticked off the neuro attending who then yelled at us for 10 mins) OR when we tried to make something better for the charge nurse and she then e-mails our chief resident rather than confronting us about it…(the chief was emphatic)…

Reason 4: I spent an hour getting all the meds right for a patient only be told two days later that one of the doses the mom told me was wrong to toxic proportions…..it caught of course thank God but still annoyed

Reason 5: I am in sleep debt, spoon debt, etc

Reason 6: I have not been to church on Sunday in over a month

Reason 7: I dont  have one super good friend in Cinci who is not a doctor and how small my world is driving me nuts.

Reason 8: I miss mountains and sisters and the familiar.

Reason 9:  Every day I want to learn and get better and every day I mostly feel dumb.

Reason 10:  I am angry and I never get angry. I am angry, cranky and anxious all the time. It needs to stop.

but alas Christmas break is around the corner, I bought my ticket today. I still love my intern class and being here I just hate being an intern today on peds neuro. But tomorrow is a new day.