homesick?

ugh I am sitting in class and am suddenly overwhelmed by a desire to be not here. And its not that normal man I hate being back in school feeling. Its a claustrophobic feeling like my life has been planned for me without my consent. I also am dying to do anything that is not methodical. I would like to have a non-science conversation or at the very discuss rather than memorize lists and lists and lists and lists of facts.

As I sit here and listen to a lecture on Blood transfusions, I remember being an 11th grader sitting in the front row in my AP Bio class. I was so fascinated by antibodies and proteins and genes and drugs and bugs. And now it is old news, I wish I could somehow transmit that excitement and passion I had 7 years ago across time. Or better yet take all the energy I waste day dreaming and wishing I was elsewhere and channel it into academic productivity.

I wish someone would send a memo on what I am supposed to do with my life.